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Hayat Un Nisa's avatar

Beta you have to eat!!!!!

You have to sleep, you have to leave the house and see the sun and laugh with friends and remember that a young man with the record score for exams doesn’t need to destroy himself for an exam, he needs to preserve and protect himself for the journey that it will begin, InshaAllah.

I pray that Allah permits you the opportunity to seek the path you so desire, but I also pray that you recognize your own needs for what a good doctor prescribes others - wellness, safety, sound mental health, and self care. 49 kgs should be the weight of a pediatric patient, not an adult physician.

Treat yourself the way you want to treat future patients, because you are not only a future doctor InshaAllah, you are also his lifelong patient. Eat, rest, and live. And for God’s sake, please someone introduce the Pakistani construction industry to the concept of wall tiles vs. floor tiles.

The glossy, high-shine ceramics we install as floor coverings in wet rooms are lethal, and I know people whose lives have ended - literally - by the all too common slip of a wet chappal on a slick, bathroom floor.

With love and duas,

Your Digital Momma

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Nasha's avatar

May Allah heal you and grant you shifa. Praying for you.

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Junaid Ul Nisar Raina's avatar

Jazakallahu khair.

May Allah bless you .

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Hiba Fathima's avatar

I’m dumbfounded right now. Not sure what to say. I’m sorry for your pain.

May Allah heal you and bless you with peace and strength. May he open a door that you never thought was possible and blesss you through it and make you pleased through it.

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Junaid Ul Nisar Raina's avatar

Ameen.

Jazakallahu khair.

May Allah bless you.

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fatimahZahra's avatar

Indeed,this is a whole lot💔

Laba'satohurun In Sha ALlah

ShafakiLlah 🤲

May ALlah grant you complete shifā' brother.

Always remember that there is no sad endings for those who put their trust in ALlah alone and ALlah will surely replace what is gone with something much more better✨

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Junaid Ul Nisar Raina's avatar

Thank you so much for your kind words, jazakallahu khair.

May Allal bless you always sister. Ameen

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Bazilaa🌷's avatar

My eyes teared upp reading this .. I can understand what you've been through but trust me , you are the most beautiful and strongest soul ..Allah tests you because He loves you and wants to increase your rank through these tests

You will always remain in my prayers In Sha Allah always

And Remember that Allahs plans are greater than ours keep pushing forward keep striving ...May Allah grant you ease and success

You're not alone in this test many have faced setbacks and achieved their goals

Perhaps being a doctor isn't your path but something better awaits keep faith, trust Allah

May Allah grant you strength, healing, success and guidance.

May your path be illuminated with ease and blessings (Allahumma Ameen)

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Asma:)'s avatar

May Allah swt grant you shifa e kamila...And know that you are not alone in this. Allahumma barik

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Junaid Ul Nisar Raina's avatar

Ameen, ya Rabb. Your dua means more than words can say—thank you.

Truly, knowing we are not alone, that Allah is always near and hearts like yours exist, brings immense comfort. May Allah envelop you in His mercy and barakah always.

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A. Marie🌷's avatar

Jun i am so so sorry this happened to you—you are not at fault for any of this happening to you. but please take care of yourself—the help u are seeking elsewhere, it will come. but first you’ve got to love yourself. that’s what matters the most. love yourself as you love others—with as big as a heart that i’ve seen. start small, and work your way up. start with brushing your teeth, eating one meal. then build from there. remember that your worth is not in grades, or in approval, it’s just in your existence itself. you are enough. no matter what you look like, what you’ve been through. remember that living and being happy is just as important as every need—physically and spiritually. they’re all things that need to be fed, so please feed yourself. you will be okay, and sending all all all my prayers to you ❤️😭🫂

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Junaid Ul Nisar Raina's avatar

Thank you, truly, from the deepest corners of my heart. I’m in tears reading your kind words. I don’t even know how to express my gratitude—these words mean so much to me. I send you endless blessings and prayers, hoping they reach you just as your kindness reached me. ❤️🫂

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A. Marie🌷's avatar

🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

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Junaid Ul Nisar Raina's avatar

🫂🫂🫂🫂

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Zhayn🌸's avatar

This is extremely emotional to read! 🥺

May Allah comfort you, be with you, and grant all your heartfelt requests.

Take care of yourself.

I pray that Allah grants you eternal peace.🤲

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Junaid Ul Nisar Raina's avatar

Ameen.

May allah bless you.

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Wasia's avatar

SubhanAllah the emotion in this post was almost tangible. It takes real vulnerability to share your lowest moments, but despite how much it likely hurt to write this, you still handled it with great grace. To have your dreams be set back is agony one doesn’t understand until one experiences it, yet your faith in Allah and your reliance in Him still remain your strongest assets, and inshaAllah they’ll be your means to achieving even more than what you initially planned for. Sending du’as for your health and your studies. May Allah grant you strength in every way and success beyond measure ✊🏼🤲🏼

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Islam Facts's avatar

May Allah heal you internally and externally. Nothing is impossible for Allah, keep on making duaa. To improve eye sight you could try a few things in prophetic medicine that I am personally trying as I have problems too with eyes. Hijama(wet cupping) on head points, eating truffles or truffle water with kuhl, kuhl before bed,istighfar, Read Surah AlBaqarah, read ruqyah daily and the duaa of Youness (as). Know that Allah can heal you instantly and you just need to keep on asking and not loose hope inshallah. May Allah grant you full shifaa very quickly.

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Junaid Ul Nisar Raina's avatar

Thank you so much. May allah bless you.

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Eimear Corscadden's avatar

Sending you all the Love of my heart……… omg you poor darling. It’s so heartbreaking to read…. That all that wonderful passion and potential that you wrote about has stalled. I hope your health begins to improve very soon. Keep a tight hold to those dreams, they are precious… 💚

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Junaid Ul Nisar Raina's avatar

Thank you, thank you for these kind words. Thank you so much❤.

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Nureen's Notebook's avatar

May Allah heal you physically and mentally. May He grant you a speedy recovery, and may He replace the hardships in your life with blessings and joy. Ameen. I'm so sorry for all that you're going through. Allah is always with you. He often tests those He loves most.

Thank you for sharing.

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Junaid Ul Nisar Raina's avatar

Thank you so much ❤

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Junaid Ul Nisar Raina's avatar

Ameen. Thank you so much for your kind words, your duas, for everything. You are truly a blessing allah sent to me, I can't thank allah, nor I can't thank you. You are always in my prayers. May allah bless you more and more, bless you with everything, and give you best reward in jannah. Ameen

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Junaid Ul Nisar Raina's avatar

Thank you. May allah bless you always. Ameen

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Junaid Ul Nisar Raina's avatar

Dearest Momma,

I don’t know how you did it… but your words reached the exact corner of me that had gone quiet. The corner that had stopped asking for comfort, thinking maybe it didn’t deserve any.

But you… you wrote like a mother would scold her son out of love — gently, firmly, with eyes full of tears she won’t show.

Yes, Momma… I’ve stopped eating, stopped stepping into sunlight. I’ve shrunk inside a dream that was meant to expand me.

And you’re right — 49 kgs is not what a future doctor should weigh.

You said it with that soft sting only a mother can manage — and I felt every word.

I’m not from Pakistan — I’m from Kashmir, India. But today, I feel like I’m just your child, no geography in between.

Momma, I’ve started thinking…

Should I keep preparing? Or has this accident, this collapse, this heartbreak — all of it — been Allah’s way of whispering: there’s another path waiting, beta.

I don’t know yet. I’m scared. I’m tired. But I’ll think about it. Slowly. Gently. Like you taught me in just one message.

Thank you for every dua, every word, every ounce of love.

I don’t have much strength right now, but whatever I have left — it’s wrapped in gratitude for you.

May Allah protect you, bless you, and multiply the comfort you gave me today — a hundredfold.

With trembling hands and teary eyes,

Your beta.

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Hayat Un Nisa's avatar

My apologies, I didn’t realize that homes in your part of Kashmir were made with those horrible tiles too! That makes them an international menace 😡

In either case Beta, your job is to take care of yourself, get better and NOT give up on your dream. You may have to shift strategies, you may have to wait another year, but in both cases, you trust in Allah while you give your body the rights that it is due.

And whatever path you take, or choice you make, you know that momma is making dua for your success.

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Junaid Ul Nisar Raina's avatar

Thank you so much, dearest Momma. I can't begin to explain what your kind words—so beautifully wrapped in love—mean to me. They’re giving me more strength than I ever thought I had left. Your duas feel like a warm embrace on a cold night. I’m crying as I write this, but these tears… they’re not of pain—they’re of hope, of strength, of comfort.

May Allah bless you and your loved ones always, with endless mercy and light. Ameen.

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